several milestones in the past week; first introducing my man to my boys... #3 says he's kinda cool - praise indeed from a 19 yr old!
going public - attending a concert, walking through town holding hands - and waiting for a response
Telling my Dad... smiling when he sought the lowdown on who is courting his (very) grown up daughter - and then laughing when I told him it's my sons who need to approve nowadays!
Telling folks my plans and hopes for the next few weeks - plus the frustration of not yet being able to be completely open about it...
and the excitement this country girl feels at the prospect of a return to the country!!
Just a few more days and the country place will know and be known... just a couple of weeks and they will tell me if they want me!!
Happy Days!
Monday, 21 June 2010
Friday, 18 June 2010
Life is Beautiful
Life is Beautiful!!
for once I have all three of my boys home over the weekend- so feel very happy to be playing at mother hen for a while
Life is moving on a pace... and work is about to take on a whole new dimension... an invitation received and accepted. Not at all where I first imagined it would be either! But that just goes to show what we always knew - when God is in control we can only sit back and let Him do with us what He will.
So all is hopeful - though it will mean some sad goodbyes along the way
On a personal level things are looking up too... another surprise, and so much more than I ever hoped for; happy and content seems so inadequate to describe my current mood - but happy and content I am!
for once I have all three of my boys home over the weekend- so feel very happy to be playing at mother hen for a while
Life is moving on a pace... and work is about to take on a whole new dimension... an invitation received and accepted. Not at all where I first imagined it would be either! But that just goes to show what we always knew - when God is in control we can only sit back and let Him do with us what He will.
So all is hopeful - though it will mean some sad goodbyes along the way
On a personal level things are looking up too... another surprise, and so much more than I ever hoped for; happy and content seems so inadequate to describe my current mood - but happy and content I am!
Wednesday, 9 June 2010
where next?
things are moving... too soon to tell... but definitely moving - I am experiencing movement in two different spheres both work and personal life... all is good, exciting and hopeful.
Would really like to be able to shout it all from the rooftops - but must excercise discretion and paitence, neither of which are strong points but are necessary right now.
hope that one answer will come in the next 24 hours.
the other answer is a beautiful work in progress :)
suffice it to say I have a smile on my lips and music in my mind
update when appropriate
Would really like to be able to shout it all from the rooftops - but must excercise discretion and paitence, neither of which are strong points but are necessary right now.
hope that one answer will come in the next 24 hours.
the other answer is a beautiful work in progress :)
suffice it to say I have a smile on my lips and music in my mind
update when appropriate
Monday, 31 May 2010
moving day
moved number two son back up the road today; he is currently trying to make the contents of his flat fit into his room in the masne. A tall, tall order!
it was a lovely day for a drive - sun shine, no clouds, and mercifully (for a bank holiday) not too much traffic either. My poor car was horribly over-burdened.. but we coped carfully! Stopped at Craggan Mill for a fabulous lunch, found that rare and wonderful thing, a chef who understands about gluten and dairy intolerance and had a menu where I was totally spoiled for choice - delicous!
not in the mood for anything more philosophical today... but looking forward to have the boy home for a brief while.
it was a lovely day for a drive - sun shine, no clouds, and mercifully (for a bank holiday) not too much traffic either. My poor car was horribly over-burdened.. but we coped carfully! Stopped at Craggan Mill for a fabulous lunch, found that rare and wonderful thing, a chef who understands about gluten and dairy intolerance and had a menu where I was totally spoiled for choice - delicous!
not in the mood for anything more philosophical today... but looking forward to have the boy home for a brief while.
Wednesday, 28 April 2010
wandering and wondering
today is another busy day
today is also a new day
a new adventure
and a new journey
I am going visiting... seeking.... searching.... reflecting... discerning
there will be much talk, and much prayer for today
where will it lead?
good question!
time to remember who is in charge
let go.... let God
today is also a new day
a new adventure
and a new journey
I am going visiting... seeking.... searching.... reflecting... discerning
there will be much talk, and much prayer for today
where will it lead?
good question!
time to remember who is in charge
let go.... let God
Friday, 23 April 2010
seeking that je ne sais quoi....
So many folks seem to be blogging nowadays... and I used to do it some years ago; so in thinking I'd get going again I discover that my old one still lives! Nothing left on it - and last active in January 2006... oh how much has changed since then!
Here am I, a country girl at heart, living in a small city now for almost 5 years - who'd have thought it?
I get to wondering: what is it that drives us? Moves us forward? Pushes us to changing and making new things happen?
Last Saturday - 17th April was a strange, strange day. It was (technically) my 28th wedding anniversary. But since it was also the first anniversary of the decision to dissolve that union I'm not sure if it really was - or was it?
Yesterday I visited my dentist - a fairly uneventful appointment apart from one, earth shatteringly gut wrenching moment. My dear dentist - I married him a couple of years ago - on the same weekend as the said anniversary... so he, innocently making small talk whilst his hands were in my mouth asked: "Did you have a nice anniversary?" mercifully, my strangled "Arrgghhh!!!" did not include my clamping down with my molars on his poor hands!!I'm not sure who was more shocked; and I'm not sure how we proceeded, my nervous giggling became slightly hysterical, and he promised no more small talk... my teeth are nice and shiny now
Back to the topic in hand - how to decide or accept that something needs to change. Although I had known for some considerable time - running into years - that I was unhappy in my married state, it would never have occurred to me that I would change things; I believed in marriage, in fact I still believe in marriage; and I thought that I would simply carry on, muddling through, finding happiness where I could, and that to change things would simply be impossible.
Even now - some 16 months since I admitted my unhappiness, and we were forced to consider what the future would be, I do not know exactly what the trigger was... but, the change happened, and it is now a year on.
Now I seek newness; renewal; hope; now I seek that changed something - intangible still at present, which will move me onward again... to what I don't know.
But the journey is a blast!!
Here am I, a country girl at heart, living in a small city now for almost 5 years - who'd have thought it?
I get to wondering: what is it that drives us? Moves us forward? Pushes us to changing and making new things happen?
Last Saturday - 17th April was a strange, strange day. It was (technically) my 28th wedding anniversary. But since it was also the first anniversary of the decision to dissolve that union I'm not sure if it really was - or was it?
Yesterday I visited my dentist - a fairly uneventful appointment apart from one, earth shatteringly gut wrenching moment. My dear dentist - I married him a couple of years ago - on the same weekend as the said anniversary... so he, innocently making small talk whilst his hands were in my mouth asked: "Did you have a nice anniversary?" mercifully, my strangled "Arrgghhh!!!" did not include my clamping down with my molars on his poor hands!!I'm not sure who was more shocked; and I'm not sure how we proceeded, my nervous giggling became slightly hysterical, and he promised no more small talk... my teeth are nice and shiny now
Back to the topic in hand - how to decide or accept that something needs to change. Although I had known for some considerable time - running into years - that I was unhappy in my married state, it would never have occurred to me that I would change things; I believed in marriage, in fact I still believe in marriage; and I thought that I would simply carry on, muddling through, finding happiness where I could, and that to change things would simply be impossible.
Even now - some 16 months since I admitted my unhappiness, and we were forced to consider what the future would be, I do not know exactly what the trigger was... but, the change happened, and it is now a year on.
Now I seek newness; renewal; hope; now I seek that changed something - intangible still at present, which will move me onward again... to what I don't know.
But the journey is a blast!!
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